i hope.

i hope he keeps his promise. even if the promise is to no one in particular. i hope he keeps it. for me, for him, for everyone. josi was telling us about how they found a decomposed body out in the fields in her hometown the other day. i don't want to be the one to find him OD-ed on the side of the road somewhere. lifeless. no matter what, he is NEVER lifeless. he can be completely sad or mad but life pours out of his every pore. he better keep his promise. i don't know what i will do if he doesn't. i would want to stand up and say something. i would want to stay strong. but is he's not staying strong....how can i be?